Author: pfspirit

Category: Food and Restaurants

I’ll be the Dining Out for Life hostess at Atomic Cowboy during the lunch hour, November 28. Lunch is served from 11am-2pm and I’ll be there a little before and maybe a little after those hours. Feel free to stop in, get a bite to eat, say hello and ummm, make a donation. Saying hello would be nice but I would love it if you did one (or both) of the other two things as well.

Dining Out for Life is an annual fund-raising event for Saint Louis Effort for AIDS. Atomic Cowboy is a participating restaurant that is providing 100% of their receipts to STLEFA. Now that’s a contribution! Help them help STLEFA and those that STLEFA assists in the local community.

Also didja know, your dining dollars and donations help STLEFA continue to provide free (yes, I said it – FREE) HIV testing (among other things) to the community? It’s far better to know than be in the dark…

This is the information for Atomic Cowboy:

4140 Manchester Ave
Saint Louis, MO 63110
(314) 775-0775
Atomic Cowboy

More importantly this is information for STLEFA and Dining Out for Life (if Atomic Cowboy is not on your beaten track, there are other restaurants listed on the Dining Out for Life link that are also participating):

Saint Louis EFFORT FOR AIDS
1027 S. Vandeventer ..700
St. Louis, MO 63110
314-645-6451
1-888-785-3321

Yet another HIV/AIDS public service announcement brought to you by Petitefreespirit.

Currently listening:
Last Tango in Paris
By Gato Barbieri
Release date: 11 May, 2004

Not what you’re thinking, I didn’t lie – I don’t have any children. I do however sponsor a little girl in Haiti through World Vision. Once a year, I receive an update on her progress and a new photo. Today I received this year’s progress report with her photo attached. That made me smile for a moment.

Looking at her photo kind of reminds me of me when I was her age. I’ve had incredible opportunities to come my way (others I’ve created by sheer will). When I was her age (11) I couldn’t have foreseen some of the things I’ve experienced/achieved. I can definitely say I’ve not allowed my austere beginnings to impede my dreams. It has taken a little longer for me to accomplish some things but I’m accomplishing them nonetheless. I hope that my sponsorship will in turn somehow offer her hope for the future. If nothing else, maybe it lets her know that some strange lady in the US knows who she is and is helping her and her family a little each month. In times of need, just knowing that someone out there cares for you and is doing something can mean the whole world.

This is the story of me and my little girl.

Currently listening:
Blink the Brightest
By Tracy Bonham
Release date: 21 June, 2005

I’m watching the BET Hip/Hop Awards that was filmed in Atlanta and I miss my old hometown for a moment. Oh well, such is life…

Saint Louis, show me what you got!

Current mood:  contemplative

I’m trying to be strong. I’ve lost my job and my boyfriend all within a week of each other. I already had another issue that I was dealing with in October where I lost something else. I’m trying to keep my spirits up about the situation and it’s not as bad as it could be. I have been able to pay my utilities in advance so I have credits on my power, gas and cell phone bills (yes, cell phone is a utitility!!!). With my next check, I plan to pay my rent in advance for December and January. By my estimations, I should (hopefully) be okay with living expenses from my last check and unemployment until I figure out what I want to do with my life. I have so much chaos and turmoil right now that I don’t really know what I want, except to find a way to study in Geneva for two months. With all of my free time to think, I’m now able to go back to some of my dreams that I ignored because I was too distracted.

I am fortunate in that I have a class that I enjoy and look forward to attending. The other class is a BORE but it does offer some interesting insight when I’m fully alert to absorb it. I feel that my life right now is about exploring possibilities and school is the perfect place for me to explore those possibilities and also expand my horizons further (they’re pretty expansive as it is). I have no idea what the outcome of all these changes will be but I am trying to keep a positive, optimistic outlook.

Petitefreespirit isn’t as free-spirited as she generally is but hopefully she’ll make a comeback soon. I miss having a twinkle in my eye that’s not a tear and having a smile on my face that starts in my heart.

Currently listening:
Corinne Bailey Rae
By Corinne Bailey Rae
Release date: 20 June, 2006

Current mood:  sad

Category: Romance and Relationships

When we tell someone that we miss them in English, we say I miss you. However in French and Italian, the sentiment is expressed by saying you are missing to me.

I’m suffering from that right now, whether I choose to say it in French, Italian or English. I’m missing someone right now that I’ve grown to enjoy and anticipate being around. To say that we are on a hiatus could be wrong, saying that it is over could be wrong. I personally don’t know what the right answer is but I do know that this moment isn’t a good one. I feel as if I’ve purchased the penthouse suite at the Heartbreak Hotel and am captive there. I don’t want my life to be/feel like this.

I’m not really listening to the entire Santana CD, just his version of Europa.

Currently listening:
The Best of Santana
By Santana
Release date: 31 March, 1998

Current mood:  optimistic

I’ve received quite a few words of encouragement from the “soul cry” post earlier this week. I just wanted to give an update to those who may read what I write to let you know that most is well within my soul now. Circumstances are a little funky but my soul feels healthy at this moment to weather the storm.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Current mood:  sad

Yesterday I was happy. Today, based on circumstances of my own (un)doing, I find myself rather desolate and sad. Within the past 24 hours I’ve experienced some setbacks that are beating my spirit into mush. I’ve lost my usual optimism and I now feel as if the air has been punched out of my stomach. The situation even feels as if it is going to adversely affect my budding relationship. More so than anything else, that is my biggest fear – to lose something that I wanted/needed after having found it.

I’ve not been online with any frequency lately and have not had the opportunity to share the news (except with my “I really do know you” friends). I’ve met someone who is very nice and wonderful. We’ve spent a lot of time together since meeting and I’ve enjoyed every minute of it. I won’t make anyone too sick with step-by-step details but I will say that I’m very happy and content and feel as if I’ve met the person I had been quietly and fervently asking the Universe to send. Thank you Universe!

If I’ve disgusted you, you may now proceed to throw up with total abandon…

Current mood:  crushed

Wal-Mart Stores to Cease Layaway Service

Now I don’t know about anyone else but yes there are some things I couldn’t have gotten if it were not for layaway. I have a Pioneer stereo, an entertainment center with two bookcases (full of books I might add), a desk and a comfortable mattress set courtesy of LAYAWAY. I’m not trying to buy all of the Christmas gifts and back-to-school clothes for my children (mainly because I don’t have children – yet) but think of how difficult this will make Christmas and back-to-school for those who do rely on Wal-Mart’s layaway availability to make their purchases. I shed a tear and spill a drop of Kool-Aid on the floor for the death of layaway at yet another retail chain.

Enough about me, what purchase did you make on layaway? Do tell…

This is yet another example of me being here when I have something more pressing to attend to (right now I should already be in the shower getting ready for work). However this thought occurred to me and I wanted to share.

I like to kiss when I’m kissing someone I truly want to kiss. I’m not a quick kisser either. I like to wait so that I know I’m truly comfortable with the person I’m about to kiss. I really consider a kiss to be a silent approval of the person for sex later (could be minutes later or days later). If for some reason I have no desire to kiss someone, I also wouldn’t want to have sex with them.

Good kisses are a bliss and passion creating phenomenon. However I would like to share with you the one type of kiss that screams for the other person to stop – the unhinged-jaw-face-swallowing-passion-killer. I’ve had people do that, much to my utter chagrin and consternation. Why? I don’t need you to push your tonsils forward into my oral cavity in order to proclaim your passion or lust for me. Kissing shouldn’t look like CPR in action nor should I need CPR after you’ve kissed me. The funny thing is, the people who’ve done that were not people I had considered for anything beyond conversation. Maybe they were sensing my lack of interest and thought sharing their tonsils would somehow provide that needed push so that I would find them sexy? Ewwwwww!!!!!!!

Just a silly thought for those who may read my blog someday and a reprimand for those who unhinge their jaws to kiss.

Have a wonderful day today or whenever you read this! Go kiss someone afterwards…